Sanity in Normalcy

As the cleansing water from the shower head sprinkles golden dew drops on me, all of the dark sludge from the day drips down the copper drain. I feel my mind recalibrate and recenter like a car that’s tire alignment was finally brought back to homeostasis. The environment and the microcosm that is me can’t sit still because when I am still, I am still racing. Toward what? One snow day off from work and I am thinking of all of the things I should be doing instead of giving myself the breathing room do be effortlessly guided. I should be doing this I think, I should be writing that essay, the due date is in four months. The nagging thoughts shift onward and I am captivated by them. I should get it over with now even though I should embrace this free time. Then the angel on my shoulder chimes in... but it’s your day off, relax! So I shoveled snow instead of relaxing and with every muscle ache of clearing the driveway I created a parting in the seas like Moses. I began on uneven icy terrain and made it to the land. I laughed and giggled, I left my phone inside and I completed an arduous task that was made enjoyable by my goofy family. It is amazing how presence is so challenging, I think it is because in the present moment we are forced to feel everything. When we feel we remember why we are here, to be alive and to live means nothing is permanent besides the current moment. In this moment we can choose to live or we can choose avoidance, we can choose rest when we need it or we can engage in a chase that is a cyclical illusion. The cycle of the seasons much like winter shows us we are ever changing, winter for me is the allowance to rest and reset. How about you?